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November 9th, 2010

Bus Stop by Pepper Espinoza

This is a sweet and nice romantic novella, something this author make me accustomed to expect. Lealdo and Patrick are probably not the most handsome men you can find around but they are for each other; Lealdo noticed Patrick, the American man who wait the bus at the stop near the coffee place Lealdo goes each morning, but he has never had the courage to talk to him: even if handsome, Lealdo is also shy, he is not really your typical Italian man (who have the reputation to be more straightforward). Then one day Lealdo notices that Patrick is waiting for the bus under the rain, without an umbrella, and that is the perfect haunch for him. Offering shelter to the man under his umbrella is little step to invite him to dinner and from that moment on the story smoothly flows towards a nice and happy romance.

Patrick is new to Rome and Italy, and he is, like Lealdo, a bit shy. He is fascinated by Italian men, but he has never had the courage to do a move. Truth be told, he has not noticed Lealdo before, and he is not exactly the classical darkhaired and intense Italian man that usually make Patrick’s heart flutters, but nevertheless, Lealdo is handsome, and to Patrick, he seems also straightforward, or at least more than Patrick’s himself. It’s probably love at first sight, and Lealdo kind and gentle courtship will conquer Patrick in less than one day.

I like both Patrick than Lealdo, they are probably average guys in an average situation, but they are really nice. It was a delight to read about their first meeting, the awkardness of two people who don’t know each other, but that they would really like to. Strange enough, there was not awkardness in understanding that both of them were gays, and that indead Lealdo was doing a pass on Patrick, a gentle and gallant one, but nevertheless it was clear that Lealdo was interested in Patrick not only in the sake of being gentle towards a stranger.


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Also Best Characters (1° place), Best Setting (1° place), Best Gay Historical (1° place)

The Lonely War was for sure a complex and sometime too much involving novel to read (and not only since it’s almost 500 pages long); I was pulled and pushed by it, especially from the second part on: pulled since I really loved Andrew Waters’ character and pushed since I was expecting, and realizing page after page, that he would not have a traditional happy ending.

I will not spend time describing the setting, the story, rewriting a blurb, all of this can be found on the publisher website or in other reviews, I want to explain why this novel was so involving for me that more than one time I needed to stop and re-reading sentences, since my mind was wondering on its own direction, letting painful memories take over the story. What you are reading is not a review, unless you don’t want to consider the factor that only a powerful novel is able to do that, to suck you into the story so much that you loose yourself into it.

More than one reader told me this novel has a bittersweet ending, but sincerely I don’t agree with them, this novel has probably the only possible happy ending considering it’s set in the mid-late ’40 and with one main character, Andrew, that is an Asia-American man. Asia-American man and gay in the US at the end of the '40 - beginning of the '50? I don’t want to give too much of a spoiler so please stop reading here if you don’t want to be spoiled, but


how much realistic it would have been if Andrew had returned home after the war to live happily ever after with another man? It would not be possible, and Andrew undoubtedly would have been unhappy, maybe not immediately, but surely in time, and probably not only unhappy, but also alone. The ending Alan Chin decided to give to the story is the only one possible, and with this perspective, for me it’s also a good one, in my mind I can imagine Andrew being, maybe not fully happy, but at least in peace.

The only concern I have is exactly on the last sentence of the postscript “he (Mitchell) realized that instant had never occurred” and even before, in the last paragraph of the last chapter:
"Okay. I'll stay with you until spring."
He (Andrew) felt a spark of intensity flare up within his being, and he desperately wanted the winter to stretch on forever.
I actually re-read three time both last chapter and the postscript, trying to understand what actually the ending was, and in the end, I think the author wanted to give us 2 options: if the reader has a more romantic core, he/she will read this ending as an happily one for Andrew, he fought his “mal de vivre” and he found a reason to continue in the people around him who loved him; if the reader has a more realistic core, he/she will read this ending with a more bitter taste. But since I’m a romantic at heart, I don’t want to think to the possible meaning of the postscript, I want to focus on that “spark of intensity” that flares up within Andrew’s being, giving him a reason to fight against everything happened to him, and maybe even against his own heart.

When I was young I loved so much the war novels, because it was an history I can reconnect to, my grandfather used to talk about the war, my same parents were children when the II WW was still on, and a lingering memoir of those events still was in the air. I stopped to love them since it was not often I found an HEA, most of the time, one of the character was left behind, mourning the loss of his/her beloved one. With this perspective, I’m happy to have read The Lonely War, it’s an heartbreaking novel, but I’m not sure I will be able to read it again (as I’m not sure I will be able to see again The Pianist or The Schindler List or Empire of the Sun): they are all artworks (and yes, art is a necessary definition) calling to much to my heart, and I need to protect it. For this reason I want to think to Andrew and that spring that will never come, letting the winter last forever.

And now out of the review, so please don’t consider it as a parameter to decide if you want to read or not this novel, this is my personal experience, but I will explain why I need to protect my heart from this novel and from that last sentence: my father was a man of summer, he enjoyed the sea, the nature, the possibility to living outdoor; he was raised in the city, during war time, and his only escape from a life of poverty and work (he started to work at 9 years old) was to go fishing near the sea, on the delta of a big river. He could do that only in spring and summer, and sometime he stretched it until autumn, but winter was out of question, it was too cold. It was not the fishing itself that pulled to my father, but the possibility to escape a reality that was too much hurting for him. When he was diagnosed with cancer, he was given 3, maximum 4 months of life: it was the December of 1990; my father fought the cancer with all his strength, he wanted to live for me, my brother and my mother, and he wanted to live since he was only 51 years old and he had a life in front of him. On November 1993, almost 3 years after the diagnosis, the pain was indescribable, and my father still refused to take the morphine since he didn’t want to loose the connection with his life, with us and the rest of the world. But the winter came and he was forced to come back home, far from the river and inside an house in the city. One of the last things he said to my mother was, looking outside to our yard garden that was starting to blossom with the new year flowers, “if I manage to be alive coming next spring, I will manage to live another year.” My father died on March 18, 1994. I want to think that for Andrew things went differently, that the spark was strong enough to let him live through the another and another and another winter.


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Healing the Fox by Michelle Houston

I really like this series of short stories by Michelle Houston about M/M shapeshifter lovers. They are not particularly “strange” or original, on the contrary they are quite ordinary, but they feel good and nice. The lovers are extraordinary ordinary mem, and yes, I meant the contraposition in the words. They are extraordinary since they are shapeshifters, in this case fox-shifters, but they are nothing out of ordinary in their day-to-day life. Of course they have a connection with the animal world, in this case Scott is a vet, and thanks to this connection, they are able to recognize each other, but aside from that, they could be your neighboor, your colleague, your friend.

As soon as a wounded fox is brought to Scott’s practice, he knows he is in front of a scared fox-shifter who needs time to heal and a comfortable place where to stay. Scott takes the fox home with him, and both at the practice than at home, he does everything to let it know to the fox that he is safe, that he can shift without worry, that he is among friends.

When finally the fox turns into a handsome young man, a college student, Scott has another issue at hand: he is attracted by the young man, but he doesn’t want to take advantage of his position. Cris, the young man, is a quite guy, even quiter than he was in fox form; he is a mix of temptation and forbidden fruit, a bit submissive and a bit domineering, right the man Scott is dreaming to find as a mate. And when they have sex, Scott immediately understands that Cris is indead his mate, but he doesn’t know if the other man is making love to him out of a wrong sense of grattitude or since he really wants to be Scott’s partner.


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